Masked Goblin

I was bullied a lot and hurt a lot at home. I tried to stick up for myself but that always made the situation much worse. I always wished a super hero would rescue me but that never happened. I learned to take it. It’s better than it getting worse. Just disassociate and wait for it to be over. No one will help you and no one cares.

Today I let myself stay in situations that make me sad or take advantage of me. I don’t know how to stand up for myself. I just take it. When I see someone I care about being treated badly, I experience rage. I jump to their rescue like I wish someone did for me. It’s not always appropriate though.

I died without anything much of my own. I put the needs of others above mine. I let people take advantage of me until the end. I’d get myself in trouble trying to do things for people and I ended up with nothing. I died trying to save someone that didn’t need saving, for nothing. I could never save myself.

Today I will enjoy my coffee. I’m an adult with the ability to look out for myself in an appropriate way. Not everyone out there is going to take advantage of me or use me. I may meet someone who cares about my feelings and won’t hurt me to get what they want. I’ll be my own hero because there isn’t anyone else out there that understands how to help me more than I do. I deserve to rescue myself today.